Give God the Pen

There was a season when my life fell apart faster than I could hold it together.

My marriage broke. The future I thought I understood suddenly felt uncertain and silent. Everything I believed I could control slipped through my hands.

For the first time in my life, I faced a hard truth. I was never meant to be the author of my story.

For 36 years, I tried to control every chapter. I believed control would protect me. I believed planning would bring peace. I thought if I worked hard enough and made the right choices, life would move the way I expected.

It did not.

Heartbreak has a way of revealing what control never can. When everything collapsed, I reached the end of my strength. I had no answers left. No strategy left. No plan left.

Only surrender.

That breaking point became the turning point. Pain drove me to my knees and led me to Jesus. In that moment, I stopped trying to write my own ending. I gave God the pen.

Scripture tells us to trust in the Lord with all our hearts and not lean on our own understanding. When we submit our ways to Him, He makes our paths straight. For the first time, those words became real to me.

Looking back now, I can see what I could not see then. God did not waste that pain.

What felt like the end of my story became the beginning of my surrender. What felt like silence became the place where I finally heard Him. God uses trials to refine us, restore us, and draw us closer to Him. Even the chapters we would never choose.

Today, people often ask me what comes next. Where are you going. What does the future look like.

My answer surprises them. I do not know.

The pressure to control the outcome is gone. God knows the beginning and the end. He sees what I cannot see. He writes chapters I would never have imagined.

Now my role is simple. I follow.

When He shifts direction, I move. When He opens a door, I step through it. When He asks me to wait, I learn patience.

If you are walking through a difficult season right now, hear this clearly. You are not alone. God has not stepped away. He has not stopped writing your story.

Even when life feels quiet. Even when answers feel delayed. Even when the path feels unclear. He is still present. He is still speaking. He is still working behind the scenes.

Surrender did not remove every challenge from my life. But it changed who carries the weight.

When God became the Author, I stopped trying to control every outcome. I started trusting His heart instead of fearing the unknown. Peace began to replace pressure. Trust began to replace fear.

Psalm 37 reminds us that the Lord directs the steps of the godly and delights in every detail of their lives. That means you are not misplaced. You are not forgotten. You are not behind schedule. You are exactly where you need to be right now, even if you cannot see the reason yet.

God sees beyond what we can see. He sees the full story.

When we insist on writing every chapter ourselves, stress becomes constant and fear becomes familiar. But when God holds the pen, the burden lifts. The striving slows. The noise quiets. You begin to trust the Author instead of the outcome.

Maybe today is the day you loosen your grip on the pen. Maybe today is the day you trust the Author.

God specializes in beautiful endings that begin in broken places. He restores what feels lost. He redeems what feels wasted. He rewrites what feels beyond repair.

Your story is not over. Your hardest chapter is not the final chapter.

Give God the pen. Watch what He writes next.

Love and light to you always,

Heather M. Larribas

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